Tomorrow morning I fly home from Valencia. I am full of mixed emotions as my whole experience finally comes to an end. Part of me is excited to move back to Falmouth, complete my degree and move on to new adventures and part of me has enjoyed this experience so much I don’t want to leave. I feel as though I have learnt more about myself in the last 4 months than I have in my time at university so far. I have learnt that with dance training there comes a tough mental pressure which can be hard to work with at times. Like in my Ballet classes when I have beaten myself up about not being able to do the splits or better arabesques. Or in Contemporary when I can’t master a phrase as well as I would like. But this added pressure has helped me to see how I should deal with it better mentally and I feel I have become a lot stronger.
From the feedback I have been given about ways I could improve myself as a dancers and performer, I have found an even bigger sense of determination to improve and become better. I have been taught ways in which I can do this including imagery and keeping this energy ball within my centre (as taught by Marta in Flamenco). I have realised that my physical strength is improving and although slow and steady, my flexibility is improving too. I feel a new sense of confidence now and faith in myself, that with hard work and determination, I can get there.
I have met amazing teachers and pupils a like who have only ever made me feel welcome and they will forever have a special place in my heart. I have lived a dream that I have imagined since I was young and I hope to be able to come back to Spain to live this experience some more in the future. I will be sad to leave but I will be back, I am sure of it.